Night where I guess I have had A LOT of time to think about things. Meaning my future: my career, where I want to be living at, a better job than BestBuy and of course my relationship with my boyfriend.
As I spoke to him tonight almost in tears because I don’t know for how long I will be able to stand living under my parents rules or this house. Why/ Because they have been avoiding me and every time I walk into a room where they are in there is an awkward silence. As if they are waiting for me to go away so they can start their conversation again. As I told him this he told me to be strong to cope with it. That soon it’ll all be over but that right now I still need my parents help financially. He is right I still need them financially on some things but not really on everything. School I have it pretty much down because what I receive from financial aid is more than enough for my studies for now. Meaning if I were to move to Kansas and attend school over there I would manage everything well when it comes to payments.
Anyways after we hanged up I started thinking and said to myself, “Rebeca if you really want to start making big and productive changes in your life you really need to start looking for job that relates to what you want to do for the rest of your life!” What is it that I want to be? I want to be a Pediatric Oncologist. Why? I love kids and I’ve always been fascinated by cancer. So after saying that to myself I started looking up jobs. Not jobs here in Arizona but a Children’s Hospital at Kansas. Let me say I was really happy with the results I got. There’s a children’s hospital 30 min away from where Ricardo lives which would not be bad to drive since my car is awesome! There is two positions open in two different hospitals that are both part-time and part-time at a hospital is working up to 50 hours a week not just 30.
With that I started thinking that most likely I would have to take night classes because it is impossible, well not impossible but really hard to find a job in the afternoon at a hospital. I know if I set my mind to it I would be able to do it and more because Ricardo is an awesome support system and he knows how to calm me down very well!
I really cannot wait to tell him tomorrow about my search. We are going to have a long conversation about our short and long term goals tomorrow. If I want this move to happen after this school semester is over I need to start hurrying up. I mean I didn’t get tattooed “Time waits for no one” for no reason!
-I know most of you don’t read these post, but I just needed to let it out somewhere! (: