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Ask me anything   Hi, I am Beki. (: Over all I try to live my life the best way possible. I live to accomplish my dreams and goals in life with a positive mind and with the help of my family and friends supporting me. I am just here to blog about what is on my mind, what interest me & grabs my attention. Feel free to follow back! Enjoy!(:<3

The distance between us doesn’t keep us from reaching for each other! Ricardo and I at the Grand Canyon during this past Tuesday he was in Arizona visiting me. This picture was all his idea and at the end he said this would make a great wedding picture! :) I think this picture defines our relationship, we’re far from each other but that doesn’t keep us from wanting to reach out to each other. The four days that he spent with me where the best four days of my summer! Not only did he spend time with me but with my family as well! I was afraid of him meeting my dad but my dad ended up liking him a lot! It’s perfect, I love his family, he loves mine and we both love each other!

The distance between us doesn’t keep us from reaching for each other! Ricardo and I at the Grand Canyon during this past Tuesday he was in Arizona visiting me. This picture was all his idea and at the end he said this would make a great wedding picture! :) I think this picture defines our relationship, we’re far from each other but that doesn’t keep us from wanting to reach out to each other. The four days that he spent with me where the best four days of my summer! Not only did he spend time with me but with my family as well! I was afraid of him meeting my dad but my dad ended up liking him a lot! It’s perfect, I love his family, he loves mine and we both love each other!

— 1 year ago with 15 notes
#personal  #journal  #life  #ldr  #long distance relationship  #love  #long distance love  #SO  #arizona  #kansas  #visit  #grand canyon  #reach out  #fighting the distance 
First day of him visiting fully a success! Nothing but laughter, heart to heart conversation and having butterfly in your stomach! My parents loved him especially my dad! And he usually doesn’t like anyone! I love the feeling of him being so close to me and knowing that waiting months to see him is all worth it at the end. Now he is in the guest room which is next to my room, I wish we were sleeping in the same room cuddling. Instead we’re texting each other cute messages! Lol now it’s time for me to say goodnight cause we are taking a road trip to the Grand Canyon! Goodnight!

First day of him visiting fully a success! Nothing but laughter, heart to heart conversation and having butterfly in your stomach! My parents loved him especially my dad! And he usually doesn’t like anyone! I love the feeling of him being so close to me and knowing that waiting months to see him is all worth it at the end. Now he is in the guest room which is next to my room, I wish we were sleeping in the same room cuddling. Instead we’re texting each other cute messages! Lol now it’s time for me to say goodnight cause we are taking a road trip to the Grand Canyon! Goodnight!

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#first day  #personal  #journal  #life  #first love  #i love you  #visit  #ldr  #long distance relationship  #long distance love  #ldb  #arizona  #kansas 

Tomorrow is the day! I get to go pick up Ricardo tomorrow at 9AM. I can’t believe that they day has come already any that I’ll finally get to kiss, hug, see him in person and etc! Let’s home we can have sexy time as well ;) (hey you can’t blame me.) He is very excited to come but as well super nervous because of my parents. I just told him to relax and be himself and everything will be okay. I hope these next four days don’t go by fast and instead go slow. Ahhhhh! I am oh so excited! This day is almost over and soon it’ll be tomorrow morning!

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#personal  #life  #journal  #ldr  #long distance relationship  #ldb  #long distance love  #visit  #vacation  #kansas  #arizona 

Just a week left and I get to go pick up Ricardo at the airport! I am SO excited! I really cannot wait to see him, hug him, kiss him, talk to him face to face and more. This is all I’ve been looking forward to these past two weeks. I am glad that I’ll have a great end to my summer before school begins. These 4 days that he will be here I’ll enjoy them to the fullest.

— 1 year ago with 2 notes
#personal  #journal  #ldr  #long distance relationship  #ldb  #long distance love  #so  #visit  #summer  #august  #kansas  #arizona  #excited 
My baby is coming! I can&#8217;t wait! &lt;3 I&#8217;ll get to have more memories, and pictures with him&lt;3

My baby is coming! I can’t wait! <3 I’ll get to have more memories, and pictures with him<3

— 1 year ago
#personal  #journal  #visit  #vacation  #ldr  #long distance  #long distance love  #long distance relationship  #ldb  #kansas  #arizona  #reunited  #summer  #excited 
Soooooooo I gotta put my full excitement somewhere, Tumblr is the place to do so!

So Ricardo is coming in August and I am oh so ubberly excited! I haven’t seen him since I went in March (in person), cause I’ve only been able to see him through web cam. But its not the same because I can’t hug him, but in a few weeks I’ll be able to do so! No more cyber kisses through our video dates but finally AGAIN real kisses! Ahhhhh! I can’t wait to hold his hand and just be able to look at him when I want. I am super excited as well because we are taking a mini trip to Sedona, Flagstaff and Grand Canyon! :) I get to see my baby. My love since I was 12 years old again. Sorry I just can’t contain myself! 

I can’t wait for August 13th, 8:40 am to come, so I can go pick him up at the airport! I definitely want that cute moment like last time that I just ran to him and hug him! Ahhh! <3

Okay I am done. He’s buying his ticket tomorrow morning and I am requesting my days off tomorrow as well! :D

Okay, bye goodnight everyone. Sweet dreams! <3

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#personal  #journal  #ldr  #long distance relationships  #long distance love  #excited  #visit  #ldb  #arizona  #kansas  #hug  #kisses  #august  #summer 
So its never really over between Ricardo and I, ever!

So we are planning my trip to Kansas for this August before school starts up. My best friend doesn’t agree with it just because she doesn’t want me to get hurt. But I want to go really bad! Ricardo and I have been talking it through. Yeah maybe he should come instead, but I don’t want him to. If he comes we would have no sort of privacy because of my dad. Tonight we are going to make plan. Starting off on how I am going to tell my dad. I already saw airplane tickets and it’ll be around $320 which is not bad at all. Next is hotel, maybe we’ll stay at one for a night or two to have some privacy and the next days stay at his house. I really want to go and I am really hoping for the best! Not only do I want to spend time with him but with his family as well!

— 1 year ago
#personal  #journal  #trip  #vacation  #summer  #kansas  #ldr  #long distance relationship  #long distance love  #ldb  #love  #wont give up  #i love him  #permission 
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I hate having needs and then having to say “Fuck why does Ricardo have to be so damn far?!” -__-
Problems of a LDR

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#long distance relationship  #long distance love  #ldr  #ldb  #needs  #wants  #distance  #personal 
I disappoint myself….

Why? Because just two days ago I was ready to type up a text message for Ricardo telling him things that would basically end this relationship. (No it was not a text message talking shit.) That’s what disappoints me that I was ready to give up just because we haven’t been talking lately because he is busy and because I snapped at him last week for him telling me that he is sorry for not calling me. I felt bad tonight when he called me and he was just telling me at the end that he is sorry and he is sorry that he has been distant and that it won’t happen again. Good thing I closed my mouth and just said “it’s okay I understand.”
I really want to make things work but it’s just so damn hard!
Because of my anger instead of UPS his present for it to get to him on his birthday May 21, I decided to send it earlier cause I didn’t want to make it special anymore and didn’t want to worry about it as well. I didn’t even print out the picture I was suppose to print out or make the cookie monster I bought for him into a keychain.
I guess I just need to learn how to control my patience.

— 1 year ago
#long distance relationship  #long distance love  #long distance problems  #disappointment  #ldr  #ldb  #love  #personal  #journal  #anger 
I loved my Tango date with Ricardo! &lt;3 I wasn&#8217;t expecting it because he has school tomorrow and it was already 11PM over there but he still called me. At first I was like &#8220;I don&#8217;t want him to see me I look horrible!&#8221; but as soon as I answered he smiled and said, &#8220;Baby you look cute! I miss you!&#8221; Remind me again why I love him so much and why I am willing to wait for him till the end of time!&lt;3 what I&#8217;ve noticed is that every time we have a Skype date or Tango date we just love to stare at each other and smile and throw kisses at each other. It seriously cute! ^_^ I just can&#8217;t wait to have him in front of me! He made my night and now my week will start off GREAT!&lt;3

I loved my Tango date with Ricardo! <3 I wasn’t expecting it because he has school tomorrow and it was already 11PM over there but he still called me. At first I was like “I don’t want him to see me I look horrible!” but as soon as I answered he smiled and said, “Baby you look cute! I miss you!” Remind me again why I love him so much and why I am willing to wait for him till the end of time!<3 what I’ve noticed is that every time we have a Skype date or Tango date we just love to stare at each other and smile and throw kisses at each other. It seriously cute! ^_^ I just can’t wait to have him in front of me! He made my night and now my week will start off GREAT!<3

— 1 year ago with 1 note
#LDR  #long distance love  #tango  #video  #call  #date  #LDB  #i love him  #personal 
Well….

It’s been two days in a row that I’ve been able to have a conversation with my babe. It’s made me jelly(: I know though that I won’t be able to speak to him this weekend because he is going to be working 14 hour shift and I am going to be working my usual 8 hours :( its okay. Why? Because we are going to have a Skype date next week and I am ubberly excited about it! I told him I want to look extra cute just for him even though our date will be cyberly. He thought that was cute(:
We are going to get to talk about when he is coming over here during summer and when am I gonna go over there. That shall be exciting because I’ll get to put a date I can look forward to!
One thing I’ve learned since Ricardo and I started this LDR is that it’s the little things that matter in life and that make a change in your life

— 1 year ago with 2 notes
#LDR  #long distance love  #long distance relationship  #personal  #journal  #thought  #LDB  #love  #its the little things  #happy 
FINALLY..

I got to have a conversation with Ricardo. I think he noticed that I have been feeling upset lately, so he started right away with,”Hey babe, how are you? What have you’ve been up to this time that we haven’t been really talking?” Just him saying that made me feel a whole lot better. I got to tell him how upset I’ve been lately and how I haven’t been feeling happy for a while even before I went to Kansas. Like always he was there to calm me down. BUT he confused me a bit. He says that I should stay in Arizona until I finish my Bachelors and then move to Kansas but every time we talk about how hard it is to be living under my parents roof he says to just wait a year. What does he mean by that? A year to move out to an apartment or with him? I don’t know something to think and bring up in a conversation

Oh and I have decided that I am going to tell my dad about him. My mom has known about Ricardo since I was 12 and my dad has met him once but never really thought anything about it apart from “he is just a friend that she met at Mexico”. My dad told me about two weeks ago that he wants to know more about my life and wants to get closer to me so I am going to tell him about Ricardo so he’ll know that I want them same. Ricardo is a bit scared because he doesn’t want it to back fire at me but I think it wont. I am trying to keep positive about this. (:

— 1 year ago
#ldr  #long distance love  #long distance relationship  #love  #distance  #personal  #journal  #thought  #happy  #LDB 
I am trying to keep strong but it’s SO hard…

Having and LDR is already hard enough and it makes it even harder when you don’t get to speak to them on the daily. What’s making it even harder on me is that when I do get to talk to him on the phone he just starts talking about things he is doing. Don’t get me wrong I love that he is so determined about everything he wants to do in life but I would like to get a ” so how are you babe?”, “what have you’ve been up to?”, “how’s school going?”, “have you gotten news about the intensive volunteer program at the children’s hospital?” I never get anything like that, not in a while. There could be something totally devastating happening in my life and he wouldn’t even know about it because he doesn’t even take the time to ask me.
It just makes me want to cry. I do want to cry. When we do end up living together he can’t do this kind of shit to me. Just like I want to know what he is up to I want him to want to know what I am up to. This is killing me inside! 3

— 1 year ago with 2 notes
#LDR  #Long Distance love  #long distance problems  #LDB  #sad  #personal  #thoughts  #journal