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Ask me anything   Hi, I am Beki. (: Over all I try to live my life the best way possible. I live to accomplish my dreams and goals in life with a positive mind and with the help of my family and friends supporting me. I am just here to blog about what is on my mind, what interest me & grabs my attention. Feel free to follow back! Enjoy!(:<3

5000-miles-apart:

The distance between us doesn’t keep us from reaching for each other! Ricardo and I at the Grand Canyon during this past Tuesday he was in Arizona visiting me. This picture was all his idea and at the end he said this would make a great wedding picture! :) I think this picture defines our relationship, we’re far from each other but that doesn’t keep us from wanting to be with each other. The four days that he spent with me where the best four days of my summer! Not only did he spend time with me but with my family as well! I was afraid of him meeting my dad but my dad ended up liking him a lot! It’s perfect, I love his family, he loves mine and we both love each other! 7 years of knowing each other, 7 years of not losing communication and 7 years of not losing feelings! Its almost surreal on how this love has been going on for so long and how far its taken us. We started of with just a “hi!” when I was 12 and he was 14 at Mexico and now we are at the moment of planning my whole move from Arizona to Kansas. Everybody that is in a long distance relationship, it doesn’t matter if its been days, months or years know how tough it is to have your SO miles away. We are possibly the kind of relationships that go through hell and back but that should never mean that we should give up on the love that we have for our SO. You guys  DON’T ever lose hope!&lt;3

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5000-miles-apart:

The distance between us doesn’t keep us from reaching for each other! Ricardo and I at the Grand Canyon during this past Tuesday he was in Arizona visiting me. This picture was all his idea and at the end he said this would make a great wedding picture! :) I think this picture defines our relationship, we’re far from each other but that doesn’t keep us from wanting to be with each other. The four days that he spent with me where the best four days of my summer! Not only did he spend time with me but with my family as well! I was afraid of him meeting my dad but my dad ended up liking him a lot! It’s perfect, I love his family, he loves mine and we both love each other! 7 years of knowing each other, 7 years of not losing communication and 7 years of not losing feelings! Its almost surreal on how this love has been going on for so long and how far its taken us. We started of with just a “hi!” when I was 12 and he was 14 at Mexico and now we are at the moment of planning my whole move from Arizona to Kansas. Everybody that is in a long distance relationship, it doesn’t matter if its been days, months or years know how tough it is to have your SO miles away. We are possibly the kind of relationships that go through hell and back but that should never mean that we should give up on the love that we have for our SO. You guys  DON’T ever lose hope!<3

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— 1 year ago with 62 notes
#ldr  #love  #submission 
The distance between us doesn’t keep us from reaching for each other! Ricardo and I at the Grand Canyon during this past Tuesday he was in Arizona visiting me. This picture was all his idea and at the end he said this would make a great wedding picture! :) I think this picture defines our relationship, we’re far from each other but that doesn’t keep us from wanting to reach out to each other. The four days that he spent with me where the best four days of my summer! Not only did he spend time with me but with my family as well! I was afraid of him meeting my dad but my dad ended up liking him a lot! It’s perfect, I love his family, he loves mine and we both love each other!

The distance between us doesn’t keep us from reaching for each other! Ricardo and I at the Grand Canyon during this past Tuesday he was in Arizona visiting me. This picture was all his idea and at the end he said this would make a great wedding picture! :) I think this picture defines our relationship, we’re far from each other but that doesn’t keep us from wanting to reach out to each other. The four days that he spent with me where the best four days of my summer! Not only did he spend time with me but with my family as well! I was afraid of him meeting my dad but my dad ended up liking him a lot! It’s perfect, I love his family, he loves mine and we both love each other!

— 1 year ago with 15 notes
#personal  #journal  #life  #ldr  #long distance relationship  #love  #long distance love  #SO  #arizona  #kansas  #visit  #grand canyon  #reach out  #fighting the distance 
So its never really over between Ricardo and I, ever!

So we are planning my trip to Kansas for this August before school starts up. My best friend doesn’t agree with it just because she doesn’t want me to get hurt. But I want to go really bad! Ricardo and I have been talking it through. Yeah maybe he should come instead, but I don’t want him to. If he comes we would have no sort of privacy because of my dad. Tonight we are going to make plan. Starting off on how I am going to tell my dad. I already saw airplane tickets and it’ll be around $320 which is not bad at all. Next is hotel, maybe we’ll stay at one for a night or two to have some privacy and the next days stay at his house. I really want to go and I am really hoping for the best! Not only do I want to spend time with him but with his family as well!

— 1 year ago
#personal  #journal  #trip  #vacation  #summer  #kansas  #ldr  #long distance relationship  #long distance love  #ldb  #love  #wont give up  #i love him  #permission 
I disappoint myself….

Why? Because just two days ago I was ready to type up a text message for Ricardo telling him things that would basically end this relationship. (No it was not a text message talking shit.) That’s what disappoints me that I was ready to give up just because we haven’t been talking lately because he is busy and because I snapped at him last week for him telling me that he is sorry for not calling me. I felt bad tonight when he called me and he was just telling me at the end that he is sorry and he is sorry that he has been distant and that it won’t happen again. Good thing I closed my mouth and just said “it’s okay I understand.”
I really want to make things work but it’s just so damn hard!
Because of my anger instead of UPS his present for it to get to him on his birthday May 21, I decided to send it earlier cause I didn’t want to make it special anymore and didn’t want to worry about it as well. I didn’t even print out the picture I was suppose to print out or make the cookie monster I bought for him into a keychain.
I guess I just need to learn how to control my patience.

— 1 year ago
#long distance relationship  #long distance love  #long distance problems  #disappointment  #ldr  #ldb  #love  #personal  #journal  #anger 
Well….

It’s been two days in a row that I’ve been able to have a conversation with my babe. It’s made me jelly(: I know though that I won’t be able to speak to him this weekend because he is going to be working 14 hour shift and I am going to be working my usual 8 hours :( its okay. Why? Because we are going to have a Skype date next week and I am ubberly excited about it! I told him I want to look extra cute just for him even though our date will be cyberly. He thought that was cute(:
We are going to get to talk about when he is coming over here during summer and when am I gonna go over there. That shall be exciting because I’ll get to put a date I can look forward to!
One thing I’ve learned since Ricardo and I started this LDR is that it’s the little things that matter in life and that make a change in your life

— 1 year ago with 2 notes
#LDR  #long distance love  #long distance relationship  #personal  #journal  #thought  #LDB  #love  #its the little things  #happy 
FINALLY..

I got to have a conversation with Ricardo. I think he noticed that I have been feeling upset lately, so he started right away with,”Hey babe, how are you? What have you’ve been up to this time that we haven’t been really talking?” Just him saying that made me feel a whole lot better. I got to tell him how upset I’ve been lately and how I haven’t been feeling happy for a while even before I went to Kansas. Like always he was there to calm me down. BUT he confused me a bit. He says that I should stay in Arizona until I finish my Bachelors and then move to Kansas but every time we talk about how hard it is to be living under my parents roof he says to just wait a year. What does he mean by that? A year to move out to an apartment or with him? I don’t know something to think and bring up in a conversation

Oh and I have decided that I am going to tell my dad about him. My mom has known about Ricardo since I was 12 and my dad has met him once but never really thought anything about it apart from “he is just a friend that she met at Mexico”. My dad told me about two weeks ago that he wants to know more about my life and wants to get closer to me so I am going to tell him about Ricardo so he’ll know that I want them same. Ricardo is a bit scared because he doesn’t want it to back fire at me but I think it wont. I am trying to keep positive about this. (:

— 1 year ago
#ldr  #long distance love  #long distance relationship  #love  #distance  #personal  #journal  #thought  #happy  #LDB 
Today was one of the most upsetting days I have ever had. My day started off good but then it went down hill when my mom gave me the worse news someone can tell you. She told me that my grandfather has Alzheimer&#8217;s. These news hurt me not only  because its my grandfather but because my grandfather means the world to me! He is the man that I admire the most in this world. As soon as my mom left my room I started crying and I cried the whole 20 minutes it takes me to get to school and as well when I was driving back home from school.
All I could think about was how am I going to live knowing that one day my grandfather will forget who I am. The thought of it just scares me, its even worse than a scary movie. Knowing that he will begin loosing his memory in 15 month makes me want to stop time or at least make it go slower so it those 15 month won&#8217;t come. I just want this amazing man to be there to walk me down the aisle when I get married. He is the only man that I want to hand me over to my future husband (Ricardo)
This is where I sent this text message to Ricardo. I told him that it had been a terrible day and he called me right away. I told him the news and he told me to calm down not to over think the situation. Not to show that I am sad around my grandfather because that will just make my grandfather feel bad. He told me to have hope and that when he does start forgetting things that to be there for my grandfather and even help him exercise his brain by showing him things he can memorize. 
Ricardo always knows what to say and how to say it so I can calm down. I really do not know what I would do without him. These are the things that make me be 100% sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I can&#8217;t show him in person or tell him in person how much I appreciate so I have to do small things from afar.
These news about my grandfather has really taught me that me that there is never enough time to demonstrate how much you love and appreciate someone. So you have to take advantage of the time that you do have. This is why I will never regret getting my tattoo with the saying &#8220;Time waits for no one.&#8221;
This time I am going to take advantage of it and demonstrate how much I love my grandfather and everyone else in my life. Even though I am miles away from Ricardo I am going to find even more little things to demonstrate how much I love him and appreciate him. 

Today was one of the most upsetting days I have ever had. My day started off good but then it went down hill when my mom gave me the worse news someone can tell you. She told me that my grandfather has Alzheimer’s. These news hurt me not only  because its my grandfather but because my grandfather means the world to me! He is the man that I admire the most in this world. As soon as my mom left my room I started crying and I cried the whole 20 minutes it takes me to get to school and as well when I was driving back home from school.

All I could think about was how am I going to live knowing that one day my grandfather will forget who I am. The thought of it just scares me, its even worse than a scary movie. Knowing that he will begin loosing his memory in 15 month makes me want to stop time or at least make it go slower so it those 15 month won’t come. I just want this amazing man to be there to walk me down the aisle when I get married. He is the only man that I want to hand me over to my future husband (Ricardo)

This is where I sent this text message to Ricardo. I told him that it had been a terrible day and he called me right away. I told him the news and he told me to calm down not to over think the situation. Not to show that I am sad around my grandfather because that will just make my grandfather feel bad. He told me to have hope and that when he does start forgetting things that to be there for my grandfather and even help him exercise his brain by showing him things he can memorize. 

Ricardo always knows what to say and how to say it so I can calm down. I really do not know what I would do without him. These are the things that make me be 100% sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I can’t show him in person or tell him in person how much I appreciate so I have to do small things from afar.

These news about my grandfather has really taught me that me that there is never enough time to demonstrate how much you love and appreciate someone. So you have to take advantage of the time that you do have. This is why I will never regret getting my tattoo with the saying “Time waits for no one.”

This time I am going to take advantage of it and demonstrate how much I love my grandfather and everyone else in my life. Even though I am miles away from Ricardo I am going to find even more little things to demonstrate how much I love him and appreciate him. 

— 1 year ago
#Alzheimer's  #Grandfather  #news  #boyfriend  #time waits for no one  #LDR  #long distance love  #long distance relationship  #love  #family  #time  #appreciate  #personal  #journal  #thought 

It has been 3 weeks since the last full day I got to spend with him but for me it feels like it’s been an eternity since I last saw him! I got to Skype with him yesterday before I went to work and oh boy was it hard to say “bye” to him. It’s hard to say “goodbye” to him when we talk on the phone and its even harder when I get to Skype him. When I had to say “goodbye” cause I had to keep on getting ready for work I wanted to cry. I got all emotional afterwards. I just miss him so much! I miss seeing his face, hugging him, kissing him, holding his hand, feeling his touch, laughing, rapping with him when we are in his car, spending time with his family, I just miss everything that I got to do when I was at Kansas, more like back at home<3

He tells me everyday that I have to stay here for a while because I need my parents financially. I feel like I need him more! I found my biggest support system in him. He gives me motivation and he gives me even more motivation when he talks about our future together. When he tells me I will forever be his girl, his main squeeze it just makes me feel like I am floating. 

It has always been hard being far from him, but it became even harder when I got to spend a week with him and see that I truly want him in my life, forever. I just hope that these miles soon just becomes inches. 

Hopefully he can come here to Arizona in June or July. I hopefully can go in August. 

God I miss this man SO much! Everyone that has their loved one seconds or minutes away you guys are truly lucky! Appreciate every second you get to spend with them. And if they are what you want forever don’t ever let them go!

-No matter the distance I’ll ALWAYS be his! 

— 2 years ago
#LDR  #long distance love  #long distance relationships  #love  #personal  #Thoughts  #journal  #i miss him  #kansas  #arizona  #forever 
Having an LDR is no joke!

You either are in it 100% or you either are not. I knew that getting myself into one would not be easy but I really don’t care its made me stronger, my boyfriend stronger and our relationship stronger. The best part of my day is when I get to hear his voice, because with the busy schedules we both have it makes it hard to communicate. But just by hearing each others voice for at least a minute that brings a smile to our face!

— 2 years ago with 7 notes
#LDR  #long distance  #relationship  #love  #strong  #communication  #distance 
So cute! You&#8217;re here but you&#8217;re not!  By -The White Dear. This makes me miss my babe❤ (Taken with instagram)

So cute! You’re here but you’re not! By -The White Dear. This makes me miss my babe❤ (Taken with instagram)

— 2 years ago with 1 note
#The White Dear  #Cute  #Long distance  #relationship  #love  #amor