Today was one of the most upsetting days I have ever had. My day started off good but then it went down hill when my mom gave me the worse news someone can tell you. She told me that my grandfather has Alzheimer’s. These news hurt me not only because its my grandfather but because my grandfather means the world to me! He is the man that I admire the most in this world. As soon as my mom left my room I started crying and I cried the whole 20 minutes it takes me to get to school and as well when I was driving back home from school.
All I could think about was how am I going to live knowing that one day my grandfather will forget who I am. The thought of it just scares me, its even worse than a scary movie. Knowing that he will begin loosing his memory in 15 month makes me want to stop time or at least make it go slower so it those 15 month won’t come. I just want this amazing man to be there to walk me down the aisle when I get married. He is the only man that I want to hand me over to my future husband (Ricardo)
This is where I sent this text message to Ricardo. I told him that it had been a terrible day and he called me right away. I told him the news and he told me to calm down not to over think the situation. Not to show that I am sad around my grandfather because that will just make my grandfather feel bad. He told me to have hope and that when he does start forgetting things that to be there for my grandfather and even help him exercise his brain by showing him things he can memorize.
Ricardo always knows what to say and how to say it so I can calm down. I really do not know what I would do without him. These are the things that make me be 100% sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I can’t show him in person or tell him in person how much I appreciate so I have to do small things from afar.
These news about my grandfather has really taught me that me that there is never enough time to demonstrate how much you love and appreciate someone. So you have to take advantage of the time that you do have. This is why I will never regret getting my tattoo with the saying “Time waits for no one.”
This time I am going to take advantage of it and demonstrate how much I love my grandfather and everyone else in my life. Even though I am miles away from Ricardo I am going to find even more little things to demonstrate how much I love him and appreciate him.